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january

2007-01-13T06:42:00.000+08:00

-1-

new year na!

'wag kang magulo, naliligo ako... hehehe =)

mula sa loob lang ng bahay ako nanonood ng fireworks from the outside. hayzz...

parang nalulungkutan ako sa new year ko ngayon... ewan?.. ay! hindi rin... =p

hayzzz... at last! nagkausap din kami ulit! sobrang na-miss ko na siya.. =) asar

lang, may sapak yung Sun.. kaya madalas napuputol yung linya and yung pag uusap

namin..
ang kulit niya that early in the morning! alam kong antok na 'to pero, ang

kulit! hehehe...
miss na din daw niya ako.
loko talaga un:
"bhebhe ko... bhebhe ko... bhebhe ko..."
"anu ulit apilido mo? polidario? gawin mo na lang san luis."
basta kulit niya ngayon..

tuwang tuwa namanang loka...

hahaha

eto isa pa, nakainom naman.. tsaka malungkot daw.. tsktsktsk..
hehe.. new friend ko siya, and na-meet ko na rin.
wala lang..
crush ko? hahahaha

-2-

naku! nakatulog ako!

si jonas, may favor.

si kiel, naghihintay na tumawag ako sa Sun niya.
eto kasi, nagtry akong i-miss call yung Sun niya, ayun, nag ring.
aba.. may balak mag macho dancer.. hahahahaha

after namin mag usap, tulog kagad.
mga 7am, nagising ako. i inserted my smart sim, then nabasa ko mga text ni kiel.

may problema ata siya.. ayun, pinilit ko na tatawag ako sa kanya sa hapon,

around 1-2.. wala daw yun, imbento lang..

haay..
kung alam lang niya kung gano ako nag alala.

-3-

weee

nagpa-lipo ako ngayon..
hahaha!
hindi.. nagpa-opera ako.. sa mata..
hehehe..
stye lang naman yun.. hahahaha!
grabe, 2 injection tinurok sa eyelid ko.. huhuhu
T__T
tapos, ramdam ko yung device na linagay sa mata ko.. waaaah..
pati yung pag kutkot sa eyelid ko!! waaaaah!!!

tapos, umuwi ako mag isa.. hehehe.. mula st.lukes, hanggang marikina, naglalakad

- lakad, naghihintay ng jeep, text text.. naka-benda yung right eye ko!

wehehehehehh...

-4-

first day ng class sa bagong taon

waaah..! lahat, tinatamad pa talaga.. hehekx..

halos wala ring klase..

pero, naku! kapapasok pa lang namin sa classroom sa cafa.. linis kagad!!!
ayun.. andumi ng uniform ko.. T__T

-5-

gising.. kain.. ligo.. pasok sa school.. late sa english 2.. walang studies sa

anatomy.. walang exercise sa mehanical drawing..

magaling, magaling, magaling!

hahahaha!

*sigh* birthday ni john osorio.. nag message ako sa kanya s friendster.. ewan

lang.. haay.. wala naman akong nakukuhang message reply from him.

birthday din pala nila nikka at felix.. hehe.. happy birthday!

-6-

saturday?

pahinga.. tamad... tulog... kain... text...

waaah!

ayus! kaya walang napapasang plates...

=p

-7-

nstp.

yes! walang pasok in the next 3 sundays! hehehe..

haayzz..

nakita ko si erickson ^.^

-8-

pasok nanaman!

dame din gagawin pagkauwi

>__~

-9-

lagooooot!

'di pa tapos sa mga plates..

epal...

buti ok sa 'min yung isang prof namin that day.. hanggang next week na yung

pasahan nung templates.

-10-

wednesday?

puro academic subject ngayon..

nakita ko na si loneliness.

hehe

nagmamaldita ako.

>:j

naku.. nga pala.. nag-disband (hahaha! parang banda eh noh?) yung tarukal

society.. pero nakapag establish din kame kagad ng bagong clan.. explooodiin'

clan.. mwahahaha!

-11-

magrereport kame

>.~

pero, buti nalang, hindi umabot yung group namen

=D

sa filipino 2 namen, naku, kahiya ako.. nasa pinakaharapan pa naman ako..

natutulog habang nagdidiscuss yung prof!

XD

-12-

waaaaah!!

nude drawing session namen sa anatomy! si ate apple ule.. aba, mala kris aquino,

pero more on ms. aj surat! hahahaha.. ms. aj was our former president, who had

this truename: jonathan surat.. haha! yes, gay siya.. pero mas babae pa siya

kumilos sa lahat ng babae! hahahahaha!!! ^__^ oh, how we miss her (what the?!!)

hehehehe...

ayun.. tapos, di rin ako nakapagpasa ng plates sa graphic arts.. shocks.. kase

na-leche nanaman.. grrr...

hehehe.. online.. etong enerson na 'to, epal talaga.. hehehe.. miss ko na 'tong

bhes ko na 'to.. haay.. pero parang hindi na katulad ng dati.. medyo may

pagbabago na din siya.

hehe.. early in the morning, magkausap kame saglit ni kiel.. haay.. how i miss

him so much..

damn..

_ prOm [ parang atin ang gabi... ] _

2006-03-12T02:28:00.000+08:00

i wore glittery gold cutix.
i wore light make - up.
i fixed my hair on my own.
i wore my tangerine and gold semi gown.

Jedd (ninong ko!) arrived at our home at 5:30pm and fetched me. we used Chester's van. there's Jean (daddy), Iam (dear classmate), Bianca (someone's sister) and Jedd's dad(thanks po!).

then we went to ate Valerie's place to fetch her Karen (sisa), Tom (Bernard), Jonathan (Ttutoy), Marwin (ang haba ng coat mo!) and Illonah (new classmate). but ate Baleng's not yet ready, so nauna nalang kami nila Chester, Iam, Tom, Tutoy and Marwin.

we're late... and it's traffic!

we run from golden valley, up to our school. people were looking at us. ^_^;

we're not that late. and then we signed to our attendance list. then we looked for the tables reserved for arellano section. we're at the front! ^_^

we arrived while a band was playing. then after a song, the program started. the pm session performed the program's cotillion. later the drinks and food was served. then the band played.

gentlemen asked a dance with every ladies.

first dance, Marvin. a not-so-close classmate, for ngayon ko lang siya naging classmate. but he's fun, sweet and he loves calling me "hi noreen!", with a smile =)

second dance, daddy Jean. sabi niya, "anak, halika, isasayaw kita." hehe.. he's just so tall, i can't stretch out my arms, tapos naka off shoulder pa ko, at medyo masikip na yung gown ko dahil (argh!..) dati pa yun ng 13 years old ako! pinatabas ko lang para maiba naman, di ba? =) natatawa na lang kami pareho.

third dance, Kerwin. my "yayo", kero. hehe. i am his 5 year-old baby. =P he's my baby sitter. he's my classmate since i was in grade3. he's so fun-to-be-with, as if hindi talaga siya nauubusan ng joke. kaya mabibigla ka sa kanya kapag bigla siyang tumahimik at totally hindi ka kakausapin buong araw, because of problem.

fourth dance, Timothy. si "koya". we were close before, but not that so close now. konting chika chika na lang eh. i didn't expect that he'll ask me for a dance.

fifth dance, Chester. my wierd crush! state of a shock ako nun! haha! grabe, 'di ko talaga inakala na isasayaw ako nun. Timothy and i were dancing that time, ng tapikin niya si Tim, at napalingon kami pareho dun sa tumapik, at sabi "ako naman," sabay turo sa kanya. my goodness! si Chester, sinayaw ako! hehe.. tawa ako ng tawa nun habang sumasayaw kami, dahil hindi ko talaga lubos maisip: kaharap ko siya, nakahawak siya sa bewang ko, halos nakayakap na ako sa kanya at syempre, sobrang lapit namin sa isa't isa. tinatanong niya ako bakit. bakit daw ako tumatawa. sabi ko wala lang =) hay, sobrang saya.

sixth dance, Amando. yung ka - MU ko, way back sixth grade.. =P hehe.. isa pa 'tong sobrang tangkad, or talagang maliit ako. hihih.. kwento - kwento. kumusta na ba sila? okay naman daw. and then, bumalik na ako sa table namin.

tumugtog yung pm session, and kumanta si Reuben, our classmate, si "big brother". dinala ko yung camera ko, and took a picture of him. sayang, hindi ko nakunan nung lumapit sa kanya yung girlfriend niya and gave him a kiss on his right cheek. heheh. he sang, "High".

and yung sumunod na tumugtog are sila Marwin on lead and rhythm, kuya Wrence on bass, Mac Jeffrey (hot na hot 'tong si kuya!) on drums and Conson (vox). grabe, i took pictures as i can, tapos nagloko yung camera! naku, hindi ko tuloy nakunan sila Conson at Louise, hindi ako plastic, pero natutuwa ako tignan sila. they played "Narda".

then, sila Noah na tumugtog. i don't know yung title ng kinanta nila, and hindi ko rin kasi ganung pinansin eh. then lumapit ako, to take a picture of the bassist. haha! i like him ^_^ but i don't know his name eh.

Nagpa picture din pala kami ni kuya Karlo! i like him=) nakakatuwa siya! Later, hinanap namin ni Ephraim si ate Jhoiy. tapos, nadaanan namin yung table ni Bien with Melvin, nagpa-picture din kaming tatlo =) saya! ayun, nakita na namin si ate Jhoiy, chika chika, nag sorry na din ako. then, pinicture-an ko si ate My and Jayson nung nakita ko sila. tapos kami naman nila ate My, ako and ate Jhoiy. and then, Ephraim asked me to have a dance, my seventh dance.

we danced for i-do-not-know-how-many-minutes, basta 3 songs yun, tapos si Simon, na kasabay naming sumasayaw, naka dalawa or tatlong partner na yata, kami ni Eph eh magkapartner parin. kwento kwento din. pinagkukwentuhan nga namin si John eh.

maya maya, yung tugtog ng banda, parang nasa disco na kami. naku, hindi kami umiinom ng kahit anong nakakalasing pero, naku.. ewan! ahahahah!!! para kaming nakawala sa hawla =) Maricel, Nicole, Geraldine, Kaila, Timothy, especially Kerwin, Katrina and Julie! grabe, 'di na sila mapigil. ako paupo upo. si Rosemarie, nakaupo lang! pero earlier, sinayaw siya nila Kerwin at Timothy, and Felix din yata eh? nagkakaroon na rin ng moshpit. yung burgos at yung arellano boys. sinasali nga ako ni Bernard eh. dapat sasali na ako, masakit lang talaga yung paa dahil sa heels! naku. okay lang kahit nakapalda ako, yung paa ko lang talaga eh! heheh..

happy happy. hanggang sa mag uwian. ayoko pang umuwi. hindi pa ako pagod pero masakit na yung paa ko. oo nga pala, may dala din akong isang rose, from Kero. heheh.. ayan, sinundo na ako ni papa. before ako umuwi, nakita ko ulit si kuya Karlo, byebye na kami sa isa't isa. hinanap ko pa din si daddy dahil nasa kanya yung Sun sim ko.

ayun, pag kauwi, nagpa-picture pa muna ako kay Mari with our John's (stuffed) dog. tapos bihis na. then, text text. then, i fell asleep na.

it was really a wonderful night!

a day, one of the special days, to treasure.

night night...

[ kUya dwAynE ]

2006-03-02T03:11:00.000+08:00

hAay..
aNg sAya..
bAtEt kAya?!
(sHet.. mAy nAg dO - dOorbeLL sAmiN.. it'S 3:22am!)
oK.. bAck tO tHe diScuSsiOn..

kUya dwAynE?

anOthEr bOyLet kAmo?! nO! hE's mY kUya.. kUya - kuyAhaN.. hEheHh.. weLL.. LaLaNg, LatELy nAgiGinG mAs cLoSe nA kamE, dAHiL sA Sun.. hEheHh.. cOmmErciaL?! ^_^

tUmAwaG siyA sA cp kO... wALa Lang. tRip kO.. sAbi kO tAwag siYa.. hiHiHhh.. na-kYut-An siyA sa bOsEs kO.. ewAn kO bA! pAti si jOhn, yUn diN sinAbi.. hAyz.. iBa na tALaga kApag cUtE tALaga! ^_^;

ayUn.. LaLang.. LaLo LanG akO nAtUwa sA kanYa.. kAHit pauLit uLit Lang tOpic nAmen.. (ehErm!!...) eH ayOs Lang.. bAsta makaUsap kO siya.. oO, yUn aNg tEma kO riGht nOw! bAsta maKausaP LanG siYa..

ayUn.. aCtUaLLy, mAtagAL nA kamiNg mAgkakiLaLa.. mGa 2 yEarS?! wE wEre cHatmatEs Lang bEfOre.. nAkiLaLa kO siyA hAbaNg tiNatapOs niYa yUng prOjEct niYa, whiLe cHattiNg! eheHehEHhh.. pAraNg akO LanG aHh!!! ^_^;

hAaAay.. nApakA cUte niYanG kuYa kOng yAn.. aHihiHiHh.. LoOk!! kitA nYo nAmaN nA eHh!!! ayUn oH! uP thEre!!! ^_^

hAay.. wALa.. gUstO kO LanG mAg pOst.. nAtutUwA tALaga akO eH! ^_^;

gE.. jAh!!!

[ siyA LanG ]

2006-02-26T04:30:00.000+08:00

bakit naman kasi, ang daming pumapasok sa buhay ko!.. hinahayaan ko naman sila.. and then i'll like them.. but, isa lang talaga ang namumukod tangi sa kanila.

i really don't know why i fell in love with him.. or why i'm loving him like this, or even i love him so much. but I'm sure I really love him.

-past- matagal na kaming magkakilala thru chat. pero strangers talaga kami sa isa't isa. after a year the first time we knew each other, nagkausap ulit kami. i asked for his cellphone number and we became textmates.

-first impression- natutuwa ako sa kanya nun. kwento kwento, madaldal. i thought of him na ka - age ko lang siya. and parang bata pa. i like him.

-for me?- but no, hindi pala. napaka talino pala nitong taong 'to. and he's a year and 2months older than me. i see na, more on practical pag iisip niya. he's such a nice guy. sweet. caring. understanding. napaka tahimik na tao, malamang maraming tumatakbo sa isip niya. we’re very much opposite.

-building up- madali akong naka recover sa past relationship ko because of him and yung iba pang mga dahilan to cause break - up. but hindi ko siya ginawang panakip butas. he opened himself for me. he comforted me the time namumrublema ako. ewan, makapal din mukha ko that time, i let him know my problems. okay lang naman sa kanya, according to him.

gumaan talaga loob ko sa kanya. that time, i don't know what he felt about the two of us. he's such a secretive person. mahirap siyang bungkalin. but willing siyang ipakita and sarili niya, on his own way and pabayaan mo siyang siya ang maglabas nun, kaya nga, mahirap siyang bungkalin. but the more na nagkakausap kami, and dumadating sa point na mas serious ang pinag uusapan, dun mo siya makikilala. and that's the start to know what he felt, and what i really felt. then we planned to meet. (see past entries)

-present- now, we're fine with each other, we're half of what you called 'close'. we're still on the 'knowing more each other' stage.

-what bother's me about him- what will happen to us? i mean, ang gulo eh? or it's just, sabik ako masyado? i'm asking him what will happen to us next? he then gives me back the question. siguro nga mali yung tanong ko. dapat i approached him the right question. yun nga lang, hindi ko pa ma – build up yung tamang term or words to come up with the right question i wanted to ask to him. pero, i just want to clear ano na nga ba talaga kami? ay, oo, tama. sinabihan niya ako na huwag akong umasa sa kanya. oo, di naman ako umaasa eh. pero mahirap pigilin na umasa hindi ba? lalo na, you know to each others what you feel between the two of you. oo, inaamin ko, umaasa ako, but not sobra. very little.

-hiling- all i want now is for you to help me. help me let me understand what you want. what you want to do first, what you want to happen first. so that, i could control my feelings, i could say to myself what are my limitations (though i know yung iba, baka meron pa?) to you.

-future- i don't want to predict. i don't want to think anything about us in the future, na very much optimistic ang dating. mahirap na hindi ba? wala pa namang kasiguraduhan.

-love- i believe on what you have said to me about what you feel. because i can feel it. maybe some could say it's enough, but to me i really do feel it.

-lessons- huwag umasa, huwag umasa ng sobra; give your love to someone without expecting any return; first things first; know your limitations; ngayon muna, bago bukas. dahil walang bukas kung walang ngayon.

-sigh- i, before, said that i wanted someone opposite of me. para may ka – kompitensya?! para may thrill. my goodness, wish came true! ang hirap niya. but it's a challenge. i want to bury all my fears. i'm sick of it. but i'm still afraid.

-you're my only one- i really thank God for He let me meet a person like you. you're a challenge to me. you’re a problem to me, for i do care with problems coming into my life. tinutuon ko sarili ko sa mga problema. i thank you too for the comforts, letting me know you and for letting me to love and express my real feelings for you.

"dont be afraid to be loved more than you can return. be afraid that you don't give back the love that you can. love need not to be equal to be fair, it only needs to be real."

[ deFensE?! ]

2006-02-18T16:25:00.000+08:00

LatE pOstiNg nG nAngyAri!

hehe... =)

wElL.. dEfeNse.. aCtUalLy mEdyO wALa LanG siYa! sA uNa, nAkaKakABa...

bUt nAisiP kO diN,, wALa LaNg 'tO cOmpArE sA cOlLegE dEfEnse nOh!!! MATAKOT AKO!!! ahaHahAh!!! ^_^

ayUn.. LaLanG.. mAlamiG sA AVR... =P

tApoS si ConSon piNanSin akO! ^_^ gRrr.. AhahHah!! jUk! ^_^v

...pEacE oUt!!!...

[ mAsayA nA pO akO uLet... ]

2006-02-17T17:41:00.000+08:00

i'M sO gLad tO knOw thAt hE's fiNe..

...tHat's alL i wAnt tO knOw.

thAnkS.. =)

[ for you... my only one... ]

2006-02-16T15:50:00.000+08:00

broken this fragile thing now
and i can't, i can't pick up the pieces
and i've thrown my words all around
but i can't, i can't give you a reason

i feel so broken up ...so broken up..
and i give up ...i give up..
i just want to tell you so you know

here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one

made my mistakes, let you down
and i can't, i can't hold on for too long
ran my whole life in the ground
and i can't, i can't get up when you're gone

and something's breaking up ...breaking up..
i feel like giving up ...like giving up..
i won't walk out until you know

here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one

here i go so dishonestly
leave a note for you my only one
and i know you can see right through me
so let me go and you will find someone

here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go, there's just no one, no one like you
you are my only, my only one
my only one
my only one
my only one
you are my only, my only one...

[jAnuAry 30, 2006]

2006-02-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

typical monday morning..

yanna and john we're texting each other in the middle of their class.

haaay... =)

he asked me if we can meet again tonight. i said yes, but only here in our subdivision.

pass seven in the evening, i fetched him at Bayan. he had his guitar with him.

we walked almost 1hour. hellos. held hands. sweet nothings. smiles. a kiss. he even pushed me off! hehe..

as we arrived at our home, i introduced him to mama. they just smiled at each other, and then we went outside.

he strummed the guitar and sung.

later, he decided to go home na.

we stayed at the loading station. at least for 15minutes.

hug. kiss. sweet nothings. smiles. goodbyes...

reason why he bother to go to marikina that day? he just wanted to see me...

[ jAnuarY 27, 2006 ]

2006-02-03T00:43:00.000+08:00

the day i've been waiting for..

it's our school's 73rd foundation day.

and that day's my first date with John. also, our first meeting with each other.

actually, i didn't felt too much nervous that day. even though we have already seen each others pictures, i kinda forgotten his looks.. but all i know is he's cute! but i don't expected too much.

past 7.. this time, i really felt nervous!!! then he texted me: "naghihintay nalang ako ng train. punta ka na.Ü" wow! it really made me smile and then took a deep breath... "this is it!"

i came from my bet friend's house near the Katipunan station. took a jeepney and LRT. as i reached gateway, i texted him: "nasan ka? andito na ako", he replied: "wait kumakain ako".. bah! hehe.=)

so i waited for 5minutes?

i was texting my best friend to thank her, someone called me from my back and said: "halika na?" with a smile =), and handed me a little bag from Blue Magic

i was shocked that time (state of a shock! haha!!). he's really cute. or i should say he has the good looks!=)

he immediately bought cards for the LRT, then pulled me, holding my arms.

we, was then, a little bit shy. but we tried to talk a lot with each other.

we took a jeepney going to Bayan, and another jeepney going to Roosevelt College Cainta to see my friend.

after that, we went back to Bayan. we walked and walked and walked.. we can't decide where to go. and then he said: "kain tayo" so we went to Marquinton.

we ate our late dinner at shakey's. this is the time when i opened his gift to me. it was a cute little stuffed dog named Harvey. and then i thanked him.=)

he almost finished our dinner because i don't have that big appetite to eat a lot. haha!! he kept on complaining because i was supposed the one to finish it all up! hehe.=) our eyes are already turning into color red, maybe because he is already sleepy?? it was late at night already!

we went back at the front of the Marikina City Hall to take a sit and talk with each other. but then, papa is calling! gosh.. *_* i'm doomed! papa is angry because i didn't tell them what time will i go home. hehe..=) it was just okay. so we waited for a jeepney going to SSS.

again..

we held our hands

said the magic word

and kissed each other's cheecks...

there's the jeep! there's the jeep! hehe..=) i left him there standing... we looked at each other as if we don't want to leave each other's side... how sad...

i'm so thankful for that day.

very grateful for knowing such a person like him...

=)

[ nEw onE.. biLis bA?? ]

2006-01-25T02:53:00.000+08:00

uy,,

john..

new one? yeah..

mukha bang masama? kaka heart break lang, may kapalit kagad? hmm, actually, dati pa siya.. si john.. i just kept on hiding my feelings, kasi may pananagutan pa kay jeff.. sama talaga noh?!.. kasalanan ni jeff? kasalanan ko?.. ewan.. tao lang ako,, hindi perpekto.. kung kasalanan ko, sorry..

well.. new year.. new one.. haha! joke..

hmm, john? hindi ko pa siya ganung kilala.. siyempre, get-to-know pa ang drama. hindi kailangang magmadali... sabi nga niya "you have all the time yanna". hindi rin john, hindi... but all i know is may kakaiba akong feelings for him. ha? ano? infatuation? 'wag ka na ngang kumontra! i'm having a new start na nga, bubuntutan mo kagad ng pangit?? i just want to be happy. don't i have the rights to be happy?

kung anu ano na pumapasok sa utak ko ha! napaparanoid na ko...

ganto ba epekto nung jepoy na yun? unggoy!!! sampalin ko utak mo eh!.. eheheh easy lang yanna.. easy lang!! lumalabas pag ka di edukadang tao mo.. -_-

john?
sweet..
bait.. of course =p
loko din minsan, awayin ba ako! wawa bata.. hatid daw niya ko sa mental...
intelligent.. wag na umangal!! basta sabi ko, sabi ko..=)
tahimik.. i mean, wala kasi kami mapag usapan!
nice voice.. crush ko yung boses niya, ang gwapo eh! hahaha!!! ^_^ boses lang ha! joke =p
kulit.. nagpaalam pa kung pwedeng daw sabihing..yun! yun na yun! sabi pa ng sabi ng ano.. joke,, hehe.. ayos lang, gusto ko naman eh.. kilig!*
gulo kausap.. oo,minsan lang naman! ewan ko ba.. oh, tanga lang ako, 'di ako makaintindi? hehe..puro text kasi!

ahh.. basta someday, makikilala ko talaga siya.. kung sino talaga siya.. patience.. step by step..

sana siya na nga...

don't expect too much good, para hindi umasa... a lesson for yanna

[ yEy!!! ]

2006-01-14T04:44:00.000+08:00

yEy!!!

spOnGebOb sKiN kO!!!

kAso pAngEt... tEka pALit nALanG uLetz akEw..

yAykSss.. rUnNinG oUt Of timE!!!.. mAwawALa nA yUng fReE!!! ^_^

ciAo!...

[ aySus ginOo giD!... ]

2006-01-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

sHeEeEettt...

fUlL sChEd!!!.. tHis iS mY oNLy tiMe tO uPdAtE mY bLog!!! dEimmm... gEeEeeZzz..

nwEiZ... it'S bEen a wOndErfUL cHriStmAs anD nEw yeAr,, evEn tHouGh kOnti LanG nAgpaPutOk!!!... yAiyy,,

hApPy nEw yeAr!!! Ü

[ biRtHdAyS! ]

2005-12-03T06:09:00.000+08:00

nOvEmbEr 2 - mY eLdEst brOthEr'S biRthdAy!!! kUya kOkoY!!! ^_^

nOvEmbEr 7 - mY dEar atHenA'S biRtHdAY!!! woOhOoOhHh!!! rEgALo kO sA kAnyA,, hAngGaNg ngAyOn,, kULaNg pA riNnNnn!!! >.<>

nOvEmbEr 22 - rOsAnNa'S biRthdAy!!! hAhaHh!! i LiKe tHis giRL sO muCh!!! kALokAaAaaAHhh!!! AhaHaHahAHhh!!!

nOvEmbEr 26 - wAaAaHhh!!! di siYa biRthdAY!!! guSto kO LanG isAma dAhiL mAsaYaAaAa!!! nAkiLaLa kO si dEndEn kOoOoOoooHhh!!! ^_^

nOvEmbEr 30 - hiNdi riN siYa biRthdAy.. uHmm.. anO,, bAstA! tuNgkOL kAy LuLa aT bEar!!! nYahAhaHahHhh!!! inEepAL LaNg!!!

ayUn LaNg.. paRaNg hIndi siYa a mOntH agO nOh?! DECEMBER nA yAnNa!!! >,<

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2005-12-03T05:53:00.000+08:00

oH mY gOsH!!!

aSaR!!! iMbEs nA mAgbAkasYoN, maGpAhiNga, mAnaHimiK nUn eHh,, nAgbAntAy akO nG mGa bAta!! (mY LiL brO aNd pAmaNgKiN),, tApOs,, tEXt nA ngA LaNg LibAnGaN kO,, piNaGbabAwALaN pA 'kO nAmpUcCa!!! bWahAhaHaHhh!!!

simULa oCt 28- nOv 2, andUn aKo sA cOndO uNit nG titA kOH!... utOs utOs, LiGpiT, tExt, bAntaY, tULog, tULonG, LabAs, pAsYaL, sitE-sEeiNg nG mgA pApabLe!!!

pEro... i miSs mY gUitAR!!! i miSs tHe pC!!! i miSs tHe sOfA (whEre i mOstLy sLeEp..yEah..)!!! i miSs mY stUfFed tOyS!!! i miSs mY kuYa!!! i miSs tHe atmOsphEre iN oUr hOmE sWeEt hoMe sA mariKiNa!!! hAaAaay.. oO nGa,, mAdamiNg fOodS sA hOuSe nG titA kO..at mGa pApabLe sA sWimMinG pOoL..pErO.. HINDEEEEEEEH!!! >kUmbEntO<

nYaHahAhaHaHhh!!!

[ yEs! at LoNg LaSt! aftEr 10 cOnsEcUtivE yEarS.. ]

2005-12-02T06:16:00.000+08:00

LaLaNg pO!...

bUti nAkapAg uPdAtE pA kO kAhit pApaAnO.. pErO pApaLitAn kO diN yUng sKin,, 'cOz,, LaLaNg.. di kO nAman LikE yUng piNk, gUstO kO LaNg yUng nAkasULat... hiHiHiHh!!.. >iNLovE?!<

nwEiZ.. mAng aAsAr LanG mUna akO pwEde?!.. >;)

_-`pOsErs"gALorE`-_

oH anO,, tArgEtiN niYo nA! dALi!
bwAhaHahAaHhh!!! >:)
pEacE oUt!!! (Y)

[ bALiK pO mUna!... ]

2005-10-26T03:44:00.000+08:00

bALiK pO mUna akO sA oLd sKiN kO...

bEcAusE i'M hAviNg a prObLem abOut it...

eDit kO nALaNg pO uLet bLoG kO aftEr oUr exAmiNatiOns...

sEe yAh!!!

tAtaHhh!!!

tHAnkS fOr viSitiNg mY bLoG!!!

Ü

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[ it wAs fUn!!!... ]

2005-10-22T05:02:00.000+08:00

yEs!!! i'vE wOn tHe pOstEr mAkiNg cOntEst,, bUt i diDn't mAkE it aS rAnK nUmbEr oNe!... i'm tHe fOurtH pLacE... i thOuGht i cOuLd mAkE it tO tHe firSt pLacE.. bUt it'S okAy! ^_^ it wAs hELd tHiS mOndAy,, aNd tHe awArdiNg's yEstErdAy - fRidAy - tOgEtHer witH tHe sinG aNd dAncE cOmpEtitOn..

spEakiNg.. oUr sEctiOn hAd mAny pArtiCipAntS fOr tHe evEnt.. hEy! it wAs fUn!! wE hAvE sO mAny tO chEer fOr,,..

fOr tHe siNgiNg cOmpEtitiOn, wE hAvE 2 cLaSsmAtEs whO pArtiCipAtEd tHeiR.. tHe firSt oNe,, tHe sOundS mEn pLayEd tHe wRoNg minUs oNe!!! sH*t fOr tHem?! hOw cOuLd tHey!!!... bUt stiLL oUr cLaSsmAtE sAng hEr bEst. tHe sEcOnd,, sHe sEemS tO bE aCtiNg fUnNy tO otHerS,, bUt nO! shE'S sEriOus.. sHe rEaLLy fEeLs tHe sOnG!!! hAhaHaHhh!!! it'S nAtUrAL tO hEr.. sHe aLwAys LiKeS tO hAvE fUn, it sEemS sHe dOn't hAvE anY prObLeM iN LifE. sO wHen sHe aCtS sEriOuSLy, otHErs tHoUgHt sHe's nOt.. hiHiHiHiHhh..

- i rEmeMbEr tHe cOntEstAnt #5 of tHe fiRst yEar LevEL,, sHe sAng onE Of aEgiS' sOngs.. i dOn't kNow tHe titLe, aNd i dOn't f^Ck_n' bOtHer tO knOw.. :P sHe drOvE mE crAzy!!! wAhaHahAHhh!!! i dUnNo!!! at firSt,, wHEn sHe stArtEd siNginG, mY hEad aChEs!!! bUt tHen, iN tHe midDLe Of tHe sOnG,, i wEnt cRazY.. rEaLLy crAzy aNd wAvEd tHe "Go! Go! You Rock!!!" bAnNeR fOr mY cLasSmAtEs whO arE cOntEstAntS! HaHahAhHhh!!! mY cLaSsmAteS wErE sHoCked aNd LaugHeD! i dUnNo wHy'd i aCtEd tHat tiMe!!! mAybE bEcAusE Of mY hEadAchE! :P -

at LaSt,, aftEr 10 yEars,, tHe dAncE cOmpEtitiOn stArtEd!!! oUr cLasSmAtEs wEre tHe LaSt onE tO dAncE.. sAdLy, tHeiR cOstUmE wEre a No-nO! i tHiNk tHey fOrgOt tO tALk abOut tHeiR cOstuMes.. tHe giRLs jUst wOre a miNisKirT..

= wAit a miNutE,, it'S hApPy tReE fRiEndS at MTV chAnNeL.. =
= hAhAHhh!!! hOw bRutAL iS tHAt!! =

yAn.. aNd tHEn, a sHirt.. *uGh... tHeiR dAncE iS gOod bUt sOmEoNe fOrgOt tHe stEp oR tHe pAir iS advAncE??.. hAaAaYyy... evEn it'S LiKe tHat, wE cHeErEd uP tO oUr LaSt brEatH!

:P

yOu kNow,, i dOn't kNoW wHy mY hEart iS bOunCin' bEcAusE Of hApPinEsS!?! sOmEonE mAdE mY hEaRt hApPy yEstErdAy... nOt bEcAusE Of a bOy,, bUt bEcAusE Of a girL! dOn't tHiNk i'm a LesbiAN!!! >_< style="font-style: italic;">fRiEnd!!! a gOod fRiEnd!!! aNd evEn a vEry vEry gOod fRiEnd!.. shE's nicE,, aWesOme.. aHiHiHiHh!!! c: i'M hApPy sHe'S hApPy tO sEe hEr >>tOot toOt<< style="font-style: italic;">tHanK yOU!! tHanK yOu!! tHanK yOu!!! tHaNk yOu!!! i LovE yOu tOo!!! >wAhpAaAaKkk!!!< =)

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[ jEfF... ]

2005-10-22T04:48:00.000+08:00

hAaAYyy.. jEfF tExtEd mE LaSt oCt. 17,.. hE grEetEd mE.. aSkEd mE iF i'm okAy.. aNd evEn aSkEd iF i stiLL LovE hiM,,...

oCt. 18, hE cAlLeD,, fRoM aNtipOLo.. at LaSt, i aLrEadY sAid tO hiM tHat 'i hAvE sO mAnY tHiNgs tO sAy tO hiM,, sO i hOpE wE'lL mEet sOmE tiMe..' hE jUst sAid 'okAy'... tHen LatEr, hE tExtEd mE agAiN.. hE sAid tHat 'i mUst tAkE cArE Of mYsELf bEcAusE hE dOn't wAnt aNytHiNg bAd wiLL haPpEn tO mE,, aNd bEcAusE hE iS stiLL HerE, tO LovE mE...' thEn i rEpLieD 'okAy.. yOu kNow wHat, i hAd aN iNtEntiOn Of brEakiNg uP wiTh yOu.. bUt i rEaLizEd i'm afRaiD tO LooSe yOu...'

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[ a gOod sOng... mY fAvOtritE sOng... ]

2005-10-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

I want to live forever
Inside the nights and days.
Wishing on a silver cloud,
Crawling across the moonbeams.
A summer night in heaven
Between the stars and waves.
Race across the old bonfire;
Trample on my heartbeat.

I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But somebody owns you now.

I love you with a fire,
Ablazing till times end
But what good is a heart
When it shudders to speak.
I guess it's too late now.

"I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But (of course) somebody owns you now.
(And) I tried to live somehow
Somebody owns you now"

Somebody owns you now

241 (mY fAvOritE sOng) by rivErmAya

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[ a sOnG... ]

2005-10-18T15:27:00.000+08:00

sarcastic smiles and fake hellos
we try to hide but always
leave an open door behind
to escape from reality

why are you crying?
why are you crying?

it felt so sure but we said no
we're throwing lies at someone
we don't know, we don't know
from this reality

why cant we risk our lives
for something that we can't deny
we try to run from something
we don't know, we don't know
is this reality?

why are you crying?

i feel so sorry
i feel so sorry
for me..

LifE sUpPort by hALe

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[ dOn't givE uP... ]

2005-10-18T15:12:00.000+08:00

Hindi mo maintindihan
Kung ba't ikaw ang napapagtripan
Ng halik ng kamalasan
Ginapang mong marahan ang hagdanan
Para lamang makidlatan
Sa kaitaas-taasan, ngunit

Kaibigan
Huwag kang magpapasindak

Kaibigan,
Easy lang sa iyak

Dahil wala ring mangyayari
Tayo'y walang mapapala
Wag mong pigilan ang pagbuhos ng ulan

May panahon para maging hari
May panahon para madapa
Dahil ang buhay natin ay sadyang ganyan

Umaaraw, umuulan
Umaaraw, umuulan
Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan

Umaaraw, umuulan

Wag kang maawa sa iyong sarili
Isipin na wala ka nang silbi
San' dambuhalang kalokohan

Bukas sisikat ding muli ang araw
Ngunit para lang sa may tiyagang
Maghintay............

Kaibigan,
Wag kang magpapatalo
Kaibigan,
Itaas ang noo

UmaArAw, umUuLaN by rivErmAya

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[ bAkit gAnUn?!... ]

2005-10-16T05:41:00.000+08:00

bAkit gAnUn?!..

mAgkaibA yUng itSurA nG bLog kO sA firEfOx sA cOmMoN iNtErnEt expLorEr...

ahEeHeEHeEHhhh!!!,,

LaLaNg,,

LiNk niyO pO akO,, LiNk diN kitA,, pAra mAdami akO fRiEndS.. parA hiNdi nA akO mALuNgkOt... Ü

givE yOur cOmMentS... sUgGeStiOns... aNd sEnd tO sQbS [7727]! (hEheHe.. jOkE LaNg pO yAn wALaNg gAnyAn aHhh!!!)

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[ tHe stArS ]

2005-10-15T05:10:00.000+08:00

it'S bEautifUL tO sEe tHe stArS uP tHerE iN tHe skY,,

witH tHe siLeNcE tHat sUrRoUndS

tHe coLd dAwN...

i fELt sO rELaxEd

dEspitE Of bEiNg dEspAir tO bE witH yOu...

sAdnEsS...

aLonE...

cOnfUsiOnS...

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2005-10-15T04:57:00.000+08:00

i'm strUmMinG awAy mY prObLemS...

yEt tHey'rE stiLL pLayiNg witHiN mY miNd...

tHey dOn't stOp bUrdEniNg mE...

hELp mE swEep tHem awAy tO tHe spAcE aNd bE LoSt...

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[ ZzZzzz... ** ]

2005-10-14T03:06:00.000+08:00

i rEaLLy fEeL sLeEpy...

bUt i cAn't sLeEp!!!...

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[ LotsA wOrkS tO dO... ]

2005-10-09T06:47:00.000+08:00

aNd stiLL i'M dOiNg sCraP tHiNgS tHat iS nOt rELatEd tO mY sChoOL wOrkS...

kiNda wAstiNg timE..

LaLaLaHhh~

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[ wAstiNg tiMe... ]

2005-10-09T06:19:00.000+08:00

piNakyAw kO yUng mGa sErviCeS nG brAvEnEt! ^_^

kAsi mAsaYa akO...

hEheHhh..

wALanG pAkieLamAnaN!!!..

wOhOoHhhh!!!~

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[ sCrAp ]

2005-10-09T02:37:00.000+08:00

tang ina jeff,, shit,, naiinis ako sa 'yo...
bakit ganun?! manhid ka ba?! mahal mo ba talaga ako?! bakit parang hindi mo man lang naiisip kung bakit sa tuwing lumuluwas ka, atat akong makasama ka?!
hindi mo ba alam na dati pa ako nangangailangan ng presence mo,,physically presence.. mahirap ba yun?! oo nga't nandiyan ka, patawag tawag sa phone,, pero iba pa rin yung hinihingi ko.. tapos kung tumawag ka nga, napakadalang at sandali lang... shems...
eh kung sa malalayong lugar, nakakapunta ka.. eto pang magkapit bayan lang ang lugar ko at yung niluluwasan mo - hindi pa tayo nagkakakitaan! nagkikita nga,, ag labo namang kausap!! sabi mo sa ganitong lugar, tapos malalaman ko na lang na sa ibang lugar ka pala naghihintay.. shit.. tapos, magtatampo ka pa kasi hindi tayo nagkita - sa araw pa na mahalaga sa 'yo.. mukhang sinisi mo pa nga ako nun eh! aba,, kasalanan ko ba iyon?! 'tah...
alam ko't malayong lugar ka namamalagi dahil sa kamag-anak mo. pero sana naman sa pagluwas mo, kahit sandali man lang,, pag bigyan mo ako sa hinihingi ko.
alam ko may pinupuntahan kang iba pang kamag-anak,, pero pano naman ako? - habang buhay na magtitiis na ganito? habang buhay na isipin at intindihin nalang mga rason mo?!
sana naman kahit papaano maawa ka naman sa akin... ayan na,, kahit hindi tama,, hindi patas,, nagmamakaawa na ako...
mababaw? mababaw ba? mababaw na dahilan?
sa tingin ko hindi. kasi kasama naman yun sa isang relationship hindi ba?!
..hindi ba?..
.........hindi ba...
inisip ko nga minsan, "kami pa ba?!"
buti nga't kahit papano ay nabubuhayan pa ako ng loob kapag nagtetext sa akin ang kaibigan mo at nagsasabi tungkol sa 'yo.. mga nangyayari sa 'yo...
inisip ko na 'to simula pa lang.. inisip ko na na mangyayari ang mga komplikadong bagay na 'to sa relasyon nating tulad nito...
pero may pagkakataon naman hindi ba?.. nasasayang lang. at ikaw.. ikaw ang nagsasayang nun...
ako na nga halos gumagawa ng paraan na magsama tayo, kahit kaunting oras lang,, kaso ano?!! wala ka...
hindi ka pumunta nung minsan.. naghintay ako... umasa.. wala...
hindi ka ba nangungulila?.. hindi ba?
..hindi ba..?.
ako..oo.. oo! matagal na.. sawang-sawa na nga ako eh.. sawa na..
pero heto pa rin ako,, pilit na tinatanggal at kinakalimutan ang pangungulilang iyon.. pinipilit na itago ang nais makuha... pangungulila..

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[ oH bOtHer... ]

2005-10-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

i wAnt tO eNd mY LifE...

tO eNd tHiS fEeLiNg i cAn't expLaiN...

i cAn't tAkE it aNymOrE!!!..

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[ i wAs tHis mAn... ]

2005-10-05T17:29:00.000+08:00

.Your past life diagnosis :
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Central Africa around the year 1175.
Your profession was that of a handicraftsman or mechanic.Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Seeker of truth and wisdom. You could have seen your future lives. Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to future.The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
~~You fulfill your lesson by helping old folks and children. You came to this life to learn to care about the weak and the helpless.~~

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[ LovE aNd fRiENdsHip ]

2005-10-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

~~Love~~ and ~~Friendship~~

~~Friendship~~ is a quiet walk in a park with the one you trust.

~~Love~~ is feeling as if you are the only two around.

~~Friendship~~ is someone gazing into your eyes and your knowing he or she cares.

~~Love~~ is someone gazing into your eyes, and it warms your heart.

~~Friendship~~ is being close even you are far apart.

~~Love~~ is still feeling his or her hand on your heart when the person is not near.

~~Friendship~~ is hoping that he or she experiences the very best.

~~Love~~ is bringing him or her the very best.

~~Friendship~~ occupies your mind.

~~Love~~ occupies your soul.

~~Friendship~~is knowing that you will always try to be there when needed.

~~Love~~ is when giving up everything to be at his or her side.

~~Friendship~~ is a warm smile in the winter.

~~Love~~ is a warming touch that sends a pulse through your heart.

~~Love~~ is a beautiful smile to which nothing compares, a tender laugh which opens your heart, a single touch that melts away your fears, a smell that reminds you of the tenderness of a heaven, a voice that reminds you of the innocence of youth.

~~Friendship~~ can survive without~~Love~~

~~Love~~ cannot live without ~~Friendship~~

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[ sChOoL... sChOoL... sChOoL... ]

2005-10-05T02:24:00.000+08:00

sHeEsShhh...

it'S bEeN a hEctiC sChEd!..

i'm LoAdEd uP witH hOmEwOrkS aNd prOjEcts...

wE'rE sUpPoSed tO bE rEStiNg tHis cOmiNg iNtrAmurALs dAy...

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[ nEw ]

2005-10-01T04:58:00.000+08:00

hErE's mY nEw bLoG..

eNjOy~

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